Friday, February 16

Today was really hard for me, as I couldn’t see my boys until about 4pm. It was hard having them by c-section and then not being able to hold them. It feels like I don’t even have two sons right now. My emotions are on a roller coaster. Gary took some pictures for me to look at but it’s still not the same. Finally at 4pm I was able to go down and look at them. It was really hard. The pictures did not prepare me for how small they are. So tiny- “how can they survive?”- I think.