Saturday, February 12, 2011
Benjamin is doing about the same. When we went to visit him this morning he was awake and quite agitated and trying to get his hand up to the vent and ECMO tubing. Thankfully his hand is tied down so he can't get it up there. He seemed to settle after a while. It's so hard not knowing what he is feeling under all the sedation and equipment. I worry that he is so scared and in pain. I hope & pray that isn't the case. Sometimes I don't really know what to pray for- that he'd just go to heaven where there is no more pain for him or for him to get better. But I know that God has a plan for him that I just don't know. I guess it's hard for me because I want to know the outcome now! I hate the waiting.